Choose Life….

April 11, 2008

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Just wanted to share a qoute that at least earlier in life resonated strong with me (except for the heroin part):

‘Choose life, choose a job, choose a career, choose a family, choose a fucking big television. Choose washing machines, cars, compact disc players and electrical tin openers. Choose good health, low cholesterol and dental insurance. Choose fixed interest mortgage repayments, choose a starter home, choose your friends. Choose leisure-wear and matching luggage. Choose a three-piece suite and higher purchase and a range of fucking fabrics. Choose DIY and wondering who the fuck you are on a Sunday morning. Choose sitting on that couch watching mind-numbing, spirit-crushing game shows, stuffing fucking junk food into your mouth. Choose rotting away at the end of it all, pishing your last in a miserable home, nothing more than an embarrassment to the selfish, fucked up brats you’ve spawned to replace yourself. Choose your future, choose life. But why would I want to do a thing like that? I chose not to choose life, I chose something else. And the reasons? There are no reasons! Who needs reasons when you’ve got heroin?’

‘Now I’ve justified this to myself in all sorts of ways. “It wasn’t a big deal, just a minor betrayal” or “We’d outgrown each other” — you know, that sort of thing. But let’s face is, I ripped them off, my so-called mates. But Begbie, I couldn’t give a shit about him, and Sickboy, well he’d’ve done the same to me if he’d only thought of it first. And Spud, well…okay, I felt sorry for Spud, he never hurt anybody. So why did I do it? I could offer a million answers, all false. The truth is that I’m a bad person, but that’s gonna change. i’m going to change. This is the last of that sort of thing. I’m cleaning up and moving on, going straight and choosing life. I’m looking forward to it already. I’m gonna be just like you — the job, the family, the fucking big television. The washing machine, the car, the compact disc and electrical tin opener. Good health, low cholesterol, dental insurance, mortgage, starter home, leisure-wear, luggage, three-piece suite, DIY, game shows, junk food, children, walks in the park, nine-to-five, good at golf, washing the car, choice of sweaters, family Christmas, index pension, tax exemption, clearing the gutters, getting by, looking ahead the day you die.’

From Trainspotting

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