Creeva’s World 2.0

Just wanted to share a qoute that at least ear­lier in life res­onated strong with me (except for the heroin part):

‘Choose life, choose a job, choose a career, choose a fam­ily, choose a fuck­ing big tele­vi­sion. Choose wash­ing machines, cars, com­pact disc play­ers and elec­tri­cal tin open­ers. Choose good health, low cho­les­terol and den­tal insur­ance. Choose fixed inter­est mort­gage repay­ments, choose a starter home, choose your friends. Choose leisure-wear and match­ing lug­gage. Choose a three-piece suite and higher pur­chase and a range of fuck­ing fab­rics. Choose DIY and won­der­ing who the fuck you are on a Sun­day morn­ing. Choose sit­ting on that couch watch­ing mind-numbing, spirit-crushing game shows, stuff­ing fuck­ing junk food into your mouth. Choose rot­ting away at the end of it all, pish­ing your last in a mis­er­able home, noth­ing more than an embar­rass­ment to the self­ish, fucked up brats you’ve spawned to replace your­self. Choose your future, choose life. But why would I want to do a thing like that? I chose not to choose life, I chose some­thing else. And the rea­sons? There are no rea­sons! Who needs rea­sons when you’ve got heroin?’

‘Now I’ve jus­ti­fied this to myself in all sorts of ways. “It wasn’t a big deal, just a minor betrayal” or “We’d out­grown each other” — you know, that sort of thing. But let’s face is, I ripped them off, my so-called mates. But Beg­bie, I couldn’t give a shit about him, and Sick­boy, well he’d’ve done the same to me if he’d only thought of it first. And Spud, well…okay, I felt sorry for Spud, he never hurt any­body. So why did I do it? I could offer a mil­lion answers, all false. The truth is that I’m a bad per­son, but that’s gonna change. i’m going to change. This is the last of that sort of thing. I’m clean­ing up and mov­ing on, going straight and choos­ing life. I’m look­ing for­ward to it already. I’m gonna be just like you — the job, the fam­ily, the fuck­ing big tele­vi­sion. The wash­ing machine, the car, the com­pact disc and elec­tri­cal tin opener. Good health, low cho­les­terol, den­tal insur­ance, mort­gage, starter home, leisure-wear, lug­gage, three-piece suite, DIY, game shows, junk food, chil­dren, walks in the park, nine-to-five, good at golf, wash­ing the car, choice of sweaters, fam­ily Christ­mas, index pen­sion, tax exemp­tion, clear­ing the gut­ters, get­ting by, look­ing ahead the day you die.’

From Trainspot­ting