Creeva’s World 2.0

Orig­i­nal From parentphobia.com: Daddy, Why Did You Blog About Me?

This is a let­ter to my future child.

Dear Lit­tle One,

Though by the time you read this you will be old enough, hope­fully, to com­pre­hend it.  Who knows you may even have broth­ers and sis­ters by this time.  I’m writ­ing this because I know that your mother and I will make mis­takes.  Con­trary to what we may teach you we are just human and not super-human.   We pos­sess no spe­cial abil­i­ties beyond judg­ment that is tem­pered with wis­dom that we have arrived at through age.   We will screw you up.   That is an unfor­tu­nate fact.  Like your grand­par­ents we will think about ways we can do things bet­ter with you then they did with us.   It is highly likely that we, like them, will screw you up and make you less then per­fect the same way they did it to us.  The only thing you get to look for­ward to is when you screw up your own chil­dren by teach­ing them in ways that you per­ceive were the wrong ways to han­dle you.

We will always love you in an uncon­di­tional way.   We may get angry at you, and I’m pos­i­tive you will get angry at us.  I hope it is not last­ing.   Our home will always be a home with a place for you in it and a place that you can come back to.  If you sixty and I’m ninety-three you will always be wel­come to live with me.  Though expect me to drive you up the wall like I do to your mother some­times.   Your mother and I may fight, that’s because we are very strong in our ideals.  You will learn that a lot of what your mother and I fight about is much dif­fer­ent then other par­ents.   This is because we are strange, please see the sec­tion where I said that we will screw you up and our par­ents screwed us up.

I write this to you now to give you some­thing to read that is just for you and your sib­lings.   An under­stand­ing in case I’m not per­fect.  A mes­sage if I’m not vocal enough in express­ing my feel­ings.  A hope that you can learn and grow from the things I write down and give you a moment in time to grasp across and to see if in the future you have the same feel­ing and prob­lems as I do now.   Not every­thing is time period spe­cific, some­thing tran­scend human time to give you an emo­tional con­nec­tion with what you feel is important.

I blog about you so you will always have a sense of who I am.  How I expe­ri­enced things.  What I believed in.  It may not be the same as you feel in the future, but hope­fully you will the strug­gles I over­came to get to the place you know me.   I’m sure there will be many sto­ries I tell you over the years that won’t be recorded.   These hope­fully you will be able to keep for­ever so you can have a piece of me with you always and some­thing to pass down to your own children.

I can’t wait to meet you for the first time, to read to you, to cud­dle with you.   These are going to be the expe­ri­ences I will cher­ish even when you have far out­grown them.  I hope you gain the same in return from your own chil­dren.  I will write you more in the com­ing future.  See you in a few months.

Love,

Your Father